Thursday, January 30, 2014

Going Crazy

Ok, this TWW is killing me this time around. Every cramp I get I assume my period is coming, every twinge I get in my belly or my side I assume it's hurting my sweet loves. Ugggghhhh!! Only 4 more days to go until the blood draw. Four long and torturous days.

I do a lot better when I have company. My husband has worked half days for the last couple days which has been a blessing. But I'm afraid today and tomorrow I'm all on my own. I have been toying with the idea of taking a home pregnancy test but I'm scared to. What if it's negative but it's really a positive and then I convince myself I'm not pregnant. Or what if it's really a negative. Oy vei. Making babies is a stressful business.

Any of you our there take a PT at home before your blood draw? Did you get a positive? How early did you test? Any info would be helpful! :)

- Sausha

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Two Week Wait

Well, my second IVF attempt is underway! We had the transfer done last afternoon and everything went very well. My bladder was pretty full this time around and it made my uterus difficult to see on the machine so doc switched to a metal tipped (I think I'm remembering that correctly) syringe thing to make it more visible. Sounds simple enough but it took a minute for him to get it from the embryologist so I was just sitting there with my goods bared for everyone. Not my finest moment .

I must admit, I was super nervous all day! I woke up at 5am (uuuggggh!!!) and couldn't fall back to sleep for the life of me. I decided to get up and lounge around, I played God of War II (that's my 14 year old boy shining through) for a few hours, then caught up on Grey's Anatomy (OMG, Jackson!!!) and watched an episode of Ellen featuring Mark Wahlberg (my secret lover) and Taylor Kitsch. Finally, it was time to get off my butt and shower!

The embryologist was so sweet!! When she came in to bring us a picture of our embies she said they were perfect. Also she said she remembered that last time we transferred two perfect ones, she looked a little puzzled. I told her that I just miscarried them and she have me a big hug! Hahaha! I love my doctor office, they are like my family. :)

I'm feeling much better this time than the last transfer. I don't have a whole lot of cramping (almost none, actually) whereas last time I was cramping a lot from day one. I don't know that one has to do with the other, but I'm keeping positive.

We go back for a blood test to check my estrogen and progesterone levels on Wednesday and the pregnancy test will be done on the 3rd of February!! Keep me in your thoughts, please! :D

Now, I'm going to return to lazing around and watching Dexter.

- Sausha

Monday, January 20, 2014

Hello Old Friend!

So last night was my first night of progesterone! I was so excited to start it this time around. It's just one step closer to getting the prize out of all this poking and prodding I've had the last few years. I am even more excited than last time around and even more certain. I contribute my confidence to knowing exactly how the procedure goes this time around. I know what to expect, and I am READY!!!

Friday can't come soon enough.

- Sausha

Friday, January 17, 2014

My Trip & Other Updates

Well, I am back from visiting my family! My baby nephew is SOOOO cute and so sweet. It was so wonderful to meet him and see my sister as a mother. She's great at it, I'm so proud!

Several times that little guy made me tear up just by smiling at me. Good lord, he's amazing!

Some recent photos:

My new haircut and color. It was fried after dying it
 for my Ariel costume. 

My sweet nephew, enjoying his nap in my arms!

Me and nephew, trying to get a good photo together.

My sisters lives in this great new neighborhood that is just absolutely the cutest place ever. The houses are GORGEOUS and different, A.K.A not cookie-cutter style. They have a LAKE and tons of open fields, community gardens, pools, parks, etc. And the best part? The people are friendly. It's so sad how in LA it becomes this incredible thing when a neighbor actually talks to you. Anyway, it's completely amazing and I would do a whole lot to be able to live there. It's a constant struggle for me to decide whether I want to move there and raise my family away from my mother (she will not move) and brother or stay in LA, where I don't really picture myself spending all my days. Plus, it's crazy expensive and hot ALL THE TIME! Someday, I will make a decision. I swear.  

My sister's neighborhood.

Hubby and I took a walk after it snowed. This is the view as we
approach the frozen lake. If you look closely you can see the geese hanging out. 
My love snapping some photos
On the way back from the walk we found this little guy in the snow. He was so cold and not moving but I kept him in my hand and he started moving! I did some research and found out where the like to live in the winter and we placed him there. :D

This clearly makes me melt.
We need a baby of our own just so I can see my hubby like this.
Hubs with my Gram.
Onto the next transfer. I had my final checkup before the big day! My hormone levels were perfect and we are all set to start the Progesterone shots on Sunday. My uterus is nice and fluffy, awaiting those beautiful babies!! I cannot wait and have a really good feeling about this cycle! 

- Sausha

Tuesday, January 7, 2014

Getting Closer

Had another doc appointment yesterday to check my lining and hormone levels, everything looks as good as ever!

So, only 17 days until the transfer!  After postponing my trip twice I finally get to meet my nephew for the first time this weekend! I am so, so, so excited :D

In other news, I hopped on the New Year bandwagon and am hoping to get in better shape this year, yes, even while pregnant! haha! I tipped the scales at my highest weight ever after this holiday season and it's just unacceptable. I checked with my doc to ensure it's okay to switch up my diet and do mild exercising while pregnant and he said it was perfectly fine and would even be a good thing. So, I am currently on day 7 of no refined sugars and day 7 of being active for at least an hour a day (well, yesterday was only 20 minutes actually) which, sadly, is a significant increase from my usual lifestyle. I am feeling good. My energy levels seem to be evening out, not very many ups and downs.

The scariest thing though, I started having chest/upper abdomen oddities. I don't want to say pains because it wasn't really painful, just uncomfortable and alarming. I left it alone for 3 days and then went to Urgent Care to get checked out and they pretty much just listened to my heart and pushed on certain areas and said there weren't any signs of a heart attack or blood clots or anything. She said it's probably acid reflux from having changed my diet! Such crazy stuff!


- Sausha